I don't get it

"For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate." Paul says this in the letter to the Romans, yet his words, inspired by God, echo my thoughts to this day. Why?! I long to not do those stupid things which I know are wrong, why?! Thank God for his grace and mercy. Lord help me to continue to grow and change and rearrange my life in accordance to your will. Amen.